31 October 2008

Its been a long time since i wrote an upbeat post, and things are not gonna change i think. Its a long phase i think where i can only write dark/glum/sad posts. Lol. Very funny.
Anyways, one reason for not blogging as much as i used to is that if i blog these days, it will be about my daily life, or what i feel about it, and i think i want to spare my gracious readers the trouble of living my life as well as their's.

Like they say "zindagi wich pehle kam maslay nay"

anyways, i was wondering today, is it pure luck that both of the recent earthquake incidents took place in october? The news bulletin has been so sad of late, bringing deaths of more and more people everytime. Wats happening around us? Its all so confusing yet so clear.

I've to work against my eyelids to keep awake. I'm so lazy i could put myself to shame anyday.

29 October 2008

Blah

Its around 2a.m. I'm in my bed but i dont think i want to sleep. I feel strangely fresh, though as my sister rightly pointed out i dont get much sleep. I wonder Hows the weather outside. Must be good, was good a while ago. Ah Damn, there's the roadblock, my mind's stuck. Sigh. Sorry this is just a lame post.

28 October 2008

RUHE

I believe good music is that which you can associate a feeling with effortlessly, and whenever you listen to it, you get that feeling coming right through. For this reason, i despise most of the new artists who're stepping into the genre of alternative or punk rock, as they're bombarding us with totally heartless superficial music that consists of predefined guitar riffs and drums that lack punch. Most of the stuff by most of these artists feels so superficial to me, but i accept everyone has different tastes in music and its not worth arguing on this matter.
Right now, lets come to the issue of the post.
Though i'm a real big rock and metal fan, i like to experiment with different stuff. The following is not really experimentation but i stumbled upon this song.
I liked Schiller after i heard the song "I Feel You" which is a very very nice song and fits the above criteria so well. I tried his other tracks but didn't like them much back then. But then, a cousin gave me this other song called "RUHE".
Instantly i fell in love with this song and the song grew on me. The electronic/techno composition is literally very soulful. The song starts off with soft bamboo like percussions, that are composed in a beautiful beautiful but simple simple manner. Then, the song grows into a simple composition which sounds almost familiar even when you hear it for the first time. Infact, i believe many of us would remember hearing it in the background of lots of tv programmes though i cant remember which ones. Even the german lyrics, which are few and far between sound perfect.
But i still haven't mentioned the best thing about this song. This song has a very confused feeling attached to it. A bit of nostalgia, a bit of sadness, just very little hope, this song gets you thinking if you do try to understand the music you listen to. Generally, when i'm listening to song, i try to picturise it, in the form of a video. For this song, i've been thinking of some picturization, something to give it a body, but all i can imagine are memories, that make you sad. Its like images taken from your past arranged in the form of slides, mixed with blurred images of vast green fields, and raindrops, everything glum, and the images change very rapidly, so rapidly you dont get much time to contemplate. Thats how i visualise it.
By the end of the song, the electronic beats get more intense, and the little lyrics that are there sound more intense even when you dont understand german.
I'm in love with this song and the feelings it provokes.

The actual video of the song is not good. Dont watch the video. Do give this song two or three rounds of play, you'll just love it. Its beautiful.

Btw, i think i like schiller now, i downloaded all of his albums, which includes 10 versions of i feel you, lol...
Btw, i've lots of music related posts in my mind.

27 October 2008

Waaaaaaannnh monday is here again. That marks an end to another weekend. Time's flying by so fast i believe we're in fast forward mode. Exams draw near. I know zilch about four out of five subjects. Thats coz this semester, attending classes has not been the order of the days, or the whole semester. And the ones i've attended, i've slept thru :s...
Waaaaaat, this is such a boring woring life. Just uni and back to my place. Nothing else. Nothing that i can call remotely constructive. I wanted to do so much stuff on my computer but thanx to the wapda people i'm always left planning. And its scary, that lights would go out all of a sudden erasing all your unsaved data. Damn it. Thats happened so many times.
Its strange times anyways, i feel all grown up. People ask my mom "oh ap iski shadi kb karain gi" haha, and the answer has shrunk from ten years to one two three or something. Damn that really means i've grown up.

I've to make an important decision today. Whether to attend the refrigeration and airconditioning classes or not. I dont want to, its not like i'll understand anything. If i attend it'll be for my moral satisfaction. Lol.

I'm so wasted.

22 October 2008

Droplets of time

The water drips unhindered. The sound, sweet in the beginning starts to grow louder, it appears to grow louder atleast. I know that because i know the distance between the mouth of the tap and the wash basin is not changing, neither is the size of the drop. So why does the sound of the drop hitting the surface appear to be louder every passing moment? Not only that, all the other sounds begin to fade into the back ground every passing second. Its like your ears and your mind are trying to focus on that tip blip tip of the droplets. Your mind shuns all other thoughts to identify the rhythm in that simplest of sounds, to decipher its meaning which doesn't even exist. Normally, the mind would tell itself that fact, but even the mind is demoted to the back seat. You think that this is probably the only sound there is, or probably the only dominant sound. You think this is what matters to you at this moment, and your mind isn't there to tell you you're wrong. You feel it growing on you, when suddenly, the sound blends into the environment. Its no more distinct, its no more isolated from every other sound. You cannot even make out separate drops now, and slowly, it fades back to wherever it came from. And tries to go back to normal. But the mind refuses to take the change immediately. You can still imagine the sound of the droplets, when its no longer there. But eventually even that goes away.



Life strangely goes on in the above fashion. People and moments fall from the tap of fate into your past like droplets, most of them meeting the same end. But the negligible distance through which they fall is the present.




You look into the basin and find a really small depression, into which a small quantity of water, around 3 4 drops, has accumulated. Atleast that'll remind you of the sound of the drops, and that they did fall.




Some things never leave you. Strange but true.

21 October 2008

The long overdue tag post

So finally, i'm back. Kind of. And i've so much to catch up with, so many post from so many of my friends on so many of my friends' blogs. But it'll all fall into place inshaAllah.

First things first.

The tag season is here once again and i've been tagged by Blogger Exquisite to list some of my pleasures. Actually i'm a bit late, thanks to my mood and my procrastinative nature. My pleasures, i cant promise them all to be guilty ones, are many. So i had to think for a while to decide whether to set a limit or not. In the end, i decided against it. And for the interest of the readers, i'll try to keep them as short as possible.

1) FOOTBALL: People who know me even a little bit must've been expecting this. Football to me has grown from being a sport to a passion to a part of life. Yes, football really is something that i need the dose of to keep me happy. And the first choice is playing the game. The sense of competition, the beauty of the game, the effort we've to put in, the runs we make, goals we score or defend, everything brings one of the best kinds of pleasures, while in the moment, and in retrospect. Whatever i write about football wouldnot be enough because in one way my life does revolve around it. The best things is that football has given me some of my greatest friends. This is one thing that brings us all together like a big network. In fact, football is one big chunk of my life, and it never fails to lift me up. Never.

2) Chocolates: Whatever people say about chocolates, i love all of them. All kinds, all colours. Infact, the real pleasure is in trying different chocolates. Ofcourse, in my pocket money, affording chocolates is a daunting maneuver, but then, thats the fun. You sacrifice a whole meal for a bar of lindt etc. Thats the pleasure.

3) Pens: I think i've written about pens before to, if i remember correctly. One of greatest pleasures since my early years has been collecting different pens. But the real pleasure is writing with a different pen everyday. And i've a knack for good pens, needless to say. Lol.

4) Cats and Kittens: I love them. I love patting them. Whenever i see a kitten, stray or otherwise, i just cannot, CANNOT hold myself back from patting it. I JUST have to. And it feels so awesome. Moreover, i plan to keep tiger cubs sometime in life. I think that counts as a cat.

5) Texting: One of the two greatest things ever happened to communications. I love texting. Much more than calling actually. Its just great, so easy, so spontaneous, so short. And you can edit your texts lol. A friend normally argues with me on the merits of texting, and i say, texting is more personal than calling. I dunno Hows that true, but it is. Needless to say, texting is uplifting. Really.

6) Gprs: This is the second of the two greatest things that ever happened to communications. Its fascinating, and i'm found using my gprs for long long times. But the best part is, if it wasn't around, i wouldn't have blogged probably.

7) Food: I'm a total total food lover, a food freak. Food is ummmmm great, whether your mood is good or bad.

8) Desserts: If there's anything called a sweet tooth, i'm the sweet tooth (what's the opposite of fairy?) ghost!

9) Dancing: Though i dont really know how to, but i just love it. I do it alone mostly, practising different steps. Hehe.

There're many more i believe, but as yet, these are the dominant ones in my mind. And they're in no specific order.

18 October 2008

An ode to the best of times

Its pretty hectic these days. I'm in pindi to attend maryam's wedding. I just came here to let something out.
Maryam has been with me since ages, she's been one of my closest friends, my best cousin, one the the greatest people in my life and an extraordinary sister. Tonight, was her dholki cum mehndi. I danced alot, i even managed to do a skit then i took such cute pictures with her. But after all that, its all coming back to me. All the fun times we had. All the times we fought and made up. All the pranks we played. Its all coming back to me. I feel rock bottom. Which is not right. She's going to get married, she's going away.
Ideally i should've come up and should've written everything about her, about the times we spend together, but i cant right now. I really cant.
Right now i'm having those random flashbacks, and occasionally my mind goes blank. Right now i just want to say that i'll miss her and i'll miss her bad. But she so deserves all the happiness MashaALLAH. Love her.

Its her rukhsati tomorrow inshaAllah.

15 October 2008

An important post.

For some reason, i just cant bring myself to blogging, or even commenting for that matter. I have a tag post due, and there's so much going on these days, so much to write about, but for some reason, i just cant bring myself to visit my blog even, or anyone elses blog. Maybe its got to do something with someone going away forever, or maybe its just a little wittle phase.
Jo b, i say sorry to my blog for this selfishness and to blogger exquisite who tagged me (i'll write it very soon inshaAllah).
I'll be back very soon inshaAllah.

:(

08 October 2008

Football is in the air

Thank God. The football seasons have finally started after what seemed to me an eternity. I say SEASONS because, firstly i'm talking about the domestic leagues of england, spain and italy etc, and secondly, i'm talking about football at uet and football in our lives.
Although its common knowledge that thats been about 5 6 weeks since the BPL, Premiera Liga and Serie A started, but the realisation has come in the true sense just now. Maybe because we had a Ramazan break. But now its on.
Anyways, i'm not going to discuss the leagues, because plenty of other people are doing that. Its uet football that i'm going to talk about. Its been three days, and we've been playing in the sun like crazy. All day everyday, missing and bunking classes. And the fever has caught on very well! 05,06,07,08! Its cool.
Everyday, we tell Bajwa to bring the ball to the lecture theatres. Then, after one or two classes, we proceed to the football ground, sit for a bit, call up 07, tell them to get their arses right here and viola, the battlefield is set up in like ten minutes. Then as the game starts, it gets infectious. Passerbys become bystanders and you can hear people shouting "Oye may kis team may hun?"
you look around you can see people with their pants pulled up, playing barefoot (cant risk my sandals dad'd kill me) calling and shouting. People with the ball try to be as smooth as possible, lol, everyone wants their share of glory. Occasionally, there are people wincing in agony lying on the grass, and there are bodies flying here and there. But thats a part of the game na. The matches are hard fought to say the least, and bringing the ball back from behind the goalposts is considered the worst job.
As the sun continues to shine, sweat glistens on the foreheads and forearms of everyone, but it cannot dry out the passion. YES THIS IS WHAT WAS MISSING FROM LIFE!

And ufl (uet football league) is going to start soon. BROUGHT TO YOU BY.......TEAM NINE XI...which is ummmm US...

Like i say "BOYZES! FOOTBALL SCENE ON HAI!"

07 October 2008

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Sigh. The teacher is talking in his jumpy english tone, without even pausing for a breather. I wanted to comment on sami's and Mahru's blogs but i'm too lazy and too fed up with mechanics of machines to do anything other than blab about it.
The teacher is bombarding us with stupid terms that are starting to sound gibberish to me,
"mean resisting torque"
"abscissa and ordinates" however you may spell the former
"turning moment diagrams"
"piston effort"
sigh. Kal sari classes bunk kin football k lia magar aj be parne ka dil nae chah raha.
Kia bakwas hai.
Din may 2 classes hoti hain unmay b janay ka dil nae karta.
Quizes are from next week, i'm praying they dont clash with Maryam's wedding.
Midterms are round the corner, and according to a consensus, the only subject we understand is mechanics of machines. The rest is all french uptill now. And whose fault is it? There're so many distraction, who has time for studies, Haina? Abi to the last two semesters went good MashaALLAH, dad was satisfied alhamdulillah and me too. I'm still basking in the glory of those two semesters.
I wanted to write so much but nothing's coming to my mind, thanks to the oscillation between pen and keypad, i've to note the lecture too.

Btw there's this cool joke i got a few days ago.

All the electrons were having a party when the protons attacked. Suddenly, a hero appeared and saved the electrons from the protons.
The electrons were surprised, they asked the hero "who're you?"
he said
"BOND
COVALENT BOND"

03 October 2008

capturing shadows

i love taking pictures of shadows. firstly its beautiful and cool and secondly, it hides the fact that u have a shitty camera. we did some shadow photography a few days ago, i've posted all of the pictures on facebook but i want to put some here too. so here they go, with a brief description.



this is my favourite picture, we tried to point guns at me standing in the middle, i'm not sure they look like guns, do they??





the one above is a good one aint it?? all boys lol...its important to notice how simple i am, i just a have a fist second from left, no fingers no nothing :p




a perfect example of a friend kicking a friend's butt. i love this pic, very very true :p




looks like a scene from some pakistani advertisement about corruption haina?? where they dont show the actual scene.



there are some other pictures, and one particularly good one but i won't wanna post that. its like those ads about AIDS where they say "qurbat k taluqat may ehtiat keejiay" and they're showing that image. i believe i should spare my reputation and refrain from posting that very picture. SORRY. abi k lia bas itna hi. :p

Counting stars

Blogger Exquisite was right. I really do have something with stars and astronomy.
I was at my chotay taya's place for dinner, out in his courtyard and the lights suddenly went out. It was pitch black. But just as i looked up, i was astonished. The sky was the prettiest i had seen in a long time.
Khair this is not really the topic of the post. I reclined on a pillow watching the stars, fighting mosquitoes and accompanying flying species. Suddenly i couldn't stand the temptation of counting the stars anymore. I started counting, ek do teen...after 42 i shifted to english though i know puri urdu ki counting. Anyways, when i reached 76, i forgot where i started and which stars i already counted. I started again and forgot. My cousin said "ho gaey count?"
i replied "nae ho saktay count"
he opined again "han nae ho saktay"

but i couldn't cope with this resignation. Man is so intelligent, there must be some way. I thought i need to find that way.

I found it.

The trick is to make a ring out of your index finger and thumb, keep it at a distance of one foot from your eyes, and start from the bottom right corner of the sky. Now look through the ring and count the stars inside the ring. Do this first with your right hand then place your left hand (the ring made out of your index finger and thumb) on top of the right, and repeat the process. Cover the whole sky doing this and you can easily count the stars.

I did almost a quarter of the sky, i got to 50. This is indeed a very good method and very effective in counting stars. Very easy, very accurate.

*Sigh* i wish it was true.

02 October 2008

Chef's special

A wonderful nashta (one that takes you into your past, one that you've had after two long years)

Menu:
2 parathas made from desi ghee, cooked on my tayee's wood fueled clay stove.
Aaam ka achaar.
Mirch ka achaar.
Fried egg, thora sa.
Chai ki ek pyaali, cooked and cooked and cooked the hasilpuri style, already sweetened.

Venue:
meri tayee ka kitchen

i'll post a picture too inshaAllah once i get hold of a computer.

P.s. Yummmmmeeee
p.p.s. Changeer may khanay ka apna maza hai
p.p.p.s. Yummy

01 October 2008

Ran-star-dom

Woah this is beautiful. i just laid my back on the charpoy placed in the frontyard cum sehan of my taya's place and the first thing or things i saw, stars! Its like i'm in the planetarium, they're so clear and pretty. Some are bright, some very dim but certainly they're much clearer than they're in Lahore.
If i look around, i'll find a series of other charpoys, and some members of the animal kingdom as well, tethered nearby, some sleeping others just grazing quietly. To be precise, its 3 cows and 8 goats. But you wont wanna count the mosquitoes out, small but powerful. So that makes 1million and 11 animals around me. And frankly, the pedestal fan aptly carries the aroma of the above mentioned 11 animals. But nevermind, the fan also carries that aroma away, so its just a passing smell lol.
Anyways, mom dad and sis wanted to sleep inside, and i pity them coz its kinda hot inside. Kinda hot means pretty hot and humid. Despite the extra fan that taya arranged for them.
I've been sleeping around all evening, at different places, mostly at Bari Phuppo's place, in her courtyard, in the heat, sweating, but still sleeping. Maybe thats coz of the hangover of the surprise eid syndrome. When i got back to taya's place i realised my back itched, i still dunno why. That itch is gone but i'm guessing some adventurous mosquitoes decided to venture in unknown territory. Very intelligent of them. I'm good now anyways alhamdulillah. This pedestal fan is shooing the mosquitoes away.
The rest of my family is finding it very difficult to sleep in hasilpur coz of the heat. Funny how luxuries like the ac can change you. As far as i'm concerned, lately, i've come under the bad influence of my own sleepiness. Which means i fall asleep in all states of rest or motion; rickshaw, bus, car, van, garmi, sardi, 5 ppl on one mattress, sofa, sitting, standing, half sitting half reclining and what not. So i'm not really complaining. Besides, its just the mosquitoes that bother me, the rest is fine.
Hey i got eidi, kafi sari MashaALLAH, still haven't counted it properly, but i think i can finally buy bvlgari inshaAllah.

Anyways, the stars are pretty, though when i started writing this post, i had my glasses on and now i dont (imran bhai took them away). Now i can only see the brightest of stars and i'm guessing they're pretty from previous knowledge. But that doesn't really matter. We can sleep as long as the stars are around. When sun pushes its way through, its retreat time! Ofcourse i'll try finding cold enough room inside the house to catch on my sleep. And i'll get some place inshaAllah inshaAllah.